Why him

So yesterday started as a lovley day got up early with Lachie and went food shopping and got everyone maccas for brekky! Came home put shopping away and tried to eat cold hot cakes (yuck) and get everyone ready in an hourr to go to the animal farm!
Had a great time at the farm B fed a donkey and loved seeing all the animals up close!
Went to kinder from the farm! (oh no) He was ok with going to kinder till we got inside then cried at me the whole time and kept telling me he wanted to go home which for B means he is really uncomfortable! They asked me to just wait it out and he will settle took till end of session! Soooo long I can't believe I didn't think he would be like that!
He is very excited at the moment coz his uncle and aunty and cousin are down from Alice Springs so anxiety levels thru the roof! Poor guy!
I just seemed to notice that he was different! It isn't something that sits at the front of your thoughts alot and so to be basially smacked in the face with it was like WOW!!!!
I ended up calling mum and going for a hot chocky and cry to try and help!
I just don't understand what he has done to get this life sentence and for people to turn around and say he isn't disabled then turn around in the same sentence and say his disabilities hold him back is just wrong!
AND to top it all of i was told at kinder that we have his aide back till at least the end of the month! because neither the aide or i were informed about the decision to change the situation! Poor B is going thru a hard time as it is and then this! Grrrrrr